revision, phone calls, frustration
Originally written .
dreamt that i was hanging out with erin on a front porch somewhere in columbus when some vagrant tried to attack us by hurling a beer keg at us.
studied crypto hardcore: elgamal, rsa, diffie-hellman – doing my head in. math behind it is hard enough in itself. wasted time coding up sha-1 hash algorithm just for kicks.
got a phone call from erin. followed same format as usual. sad part->talking about school->me ranting->talking about music->just joking around about random stuff (best part)->cutting call short so we can both get back to studying. frustrating. i like getting calls, but i always feel sort of unsated after them. it’s like eating a really good dish at a gourmet restaurant but getting too small a portion. worried about being able to compartmentalize my life so easily, force myself not to be bothered by things. i think that big things that happen in the world or attrocities that happen to strangers upset me more than events that impact me directly. i don’t know why.
thank goodness iain got new records over the holiday. been borrowing some discs. liking in/casino/out from at the drive in a great deal. more post-emo/post-hxc sounds heard on that record than relationship of command. also digging this disc by scottish punk-twinged indie group idlewild. finally, rocking out to jawbreaker. that’s what punk rock should be. of course listening to the old mp3 collection as well: source tags and codes (appropriate cs study music) from trail of dead, go forth by les savy fav, propaghandi‘s last release, and some fifteen.
played a little football in the meadows w/ rob, andrea, and anais(sp?). managed to escape the impending rain of dark scottish clouds. more running around than actual football skill, but still fun.