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Originally written 04.25.2002 .

maybe it’s just that i woke up at 6am this morning, but the initial recordings of some of the songs off the forthcoming weezer album that i downloaded some time ago are really quite good. not pinkerton good. not even blue album good, but still enjoyable. they’re the same power-pop as the green album, but seem to have at least a little more earnesty. it seems, at least, that rivers and co. is trying a little harder this time, and that’s enough to satiate me until they put out a more introspective album. i wonder which of these songs made the final cut for the album, which weezer fanatics like peter seem to have already heard. his verdict is that the final recordings sound even better than the demos.

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dirty reads (done dirt cheap)

Originally written 04.22.2002.

up until 02:30 revising. finished all my computer security stuff. just need to go over it one last time before the exam. fell asleep listening to this american life. realized that i could use shutdown -h +60 so my box would shut down after the episode finished and i wouldn’t have to hear the fan running all night. just as i was about to fall asleep, heard ruckus in courtyard. bastards.

had a dream where i wasn’t really an active party in the dream but an omniscient third party. it was like watching a movie. something about a middle-aged southern woman who ran a small-town hotel and who was content servicing others. her teenaged daughter dreamed of a different life. really weird. don’t know why i’ve been remembering my dreams lately.

woke up at 10:00 to study transaction processing (synchronisation, conflicting operations, dirty reads (hence today’s title), premature writes, etc.). breakfast was a dr. pepper slushy.

an anectdote from a few days ago that just needs to be recounted: it was the middle of the night and i heard iain squeel, “oh my god, anne’s doing horny dancing”. it was late, so i just rolled over and went back to bed. the next morning i got all the gruesome details from iain. anne, an american (and an ugly american, in every sense of the word), got really drunk and knocked on our door. iain answered, and to his horror, encountered anne singing “i’m horny. horny, horny, horny”. there was an acompanying dance. i believe it goes hip thrust, hip thrust, booty slap, booty slap, booty slap. good thing i went to bed early. yikes!

quick run to tesco to get some food for the next couple of days. quick and easy food for study nights and reward food for after exams. trying to find a good vegan chili recipe. bought some 52p/2L generic cola to get me through the night’s revision.

realised that i don’t remember the last time i showered. i don’t really care much normally, and girlfriend across the ocean + exams = complete disregard for personal hygine.

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london adventure day 9 (wed. 04.10.2002)

Originally written 04.10.2002.

i had reserved my seat on the 14:00 train to give myself some time in the morning for last minute sight-seeing and skating, but i was too broke from eight days of holiday fun, and too broken, from last night’s skate, to do either. so, i started trudging across town to king’s cross. i had saved just enough money to take the tube to the station, but i figured i’d try to walk the 2 miles or so from lancaster gate to king’s x and save the cash for food.

so, i started walking. urban backpacking, indeed physical exertion of any sort, is an interesting experience in a megalopolis. most of the cyclist i saw pass me wore these face masks which helped block out smog and dust. probably a good idea as throughout the week, i found disgusting traces of grey and black whenever i blew my nose. i know that this is just my nose doing it’s job, but it’s still totally gross.

half way in my journey across central london, i came upon regent’s park. it seems almost unfair for london to have so many beautiful parks, of which regent’s park is definitely one. green fields, perfect for football, playgrounds, and tennis courts, copious blooming flowers and a pond inhabited by various manner of water foul. i chilled out for a long while, just taking in the spring scene, realizing that i had been treated to a week of perfect weather! after a while, i hefted my pack upon my shoulders and headed on towards king’s x. i arrived well early for my train so i just sat in the train terminal, wrote, and people watched until my train arrived.

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london adventure day 8 (tues. 04.09.2002)

Originally written 04.09.2002.

today was a chill day, imposed more by lack of funds than anything else. i dropped the majority of what little cash i had left on a one day travelcard and headed out. first i followed up on the “grail hub” for my dad. the bicycle hub is the sturmey archer asc and it’s a 3 speed, fixed gear hub that hasn’t been made since the 50s. most shops i enquired at had no clue. i thought i was getting close when one shop i found mentioned some old guy who did sa repairs out of his house. unfortunately, no one knew how to get ahold of this guy. i was directed to a shop that some thought would be in the know and once i got there, i was sent to the back room where a grimey handed mechanic told me th best bet would be a bike swap or the internet. hah! the internet. it’s always fun to see my dad’s street hitting methodology supplanted by technology. so, giving up the search for the hub, i hopped on the docklands light rail (an above ground subway system which connects to the london underground) to cutty sark and maritime greenwich. i didn’t have the pounds to do anything much really, but i thought i’d walk around. greenwich is pretty neat – some quirky little record and kitsch shops as well as some maritime antique stores and lots of cafes. i headed for greenwich park and encountered an exceedingly lovely scene full of grassy hills, roman and saxon ruins, tree lined paths and floral gardens. definitely a good getaway from the madness of the city. there were tons of little kids running around, kids riding bikes, families playing football. it was really nice.

i made my way towards the center of the park and the sir christopher wren built royal observatory. i didn’t have the cash to get in, but i thought i could at least look around and maybe jump a fence. surprise! i didn’t have to. since my copy of let’s go was published, the royal observatory had been made free to the public. so, i went in and saw the prime meridian marker as well as some cool displays of astronomical and navigation equipment. there was also a camera obscura which is like a room that acts like a camera with a 360 degree view projected onto a surface in a darkened view. cool.

i headed back through the park to another free museum, the national maritime museum. they had a large range of maritime artifacts that i wasn’t very interested in, and a special exhibit on the history of the tattoo that i was interested in but that i found largely disappointing.

the free museum frenzy continued as i departed greenwich and took the district/circle line to the south kensington stop. this stop services a number of free museums – the natural history museum, the science museum, and the one i was interested in, the v&a. the v&a was originally to spur public interest in art and design and it continues in this tradition to create a really interesting museum. you have your traditional painting, sculpture, etc, but also exhibits on the design of fashion, musical instruments, printed work, and home furnishings. i wished that i had allotted more time for this museum because it was really quite cool. i did get to see the raphael cartoons (think big drawings/paintings made in preparation for another work, in this case tapestries, not the saturday morning variety, an impressive collection of 20th century objects with their design qualities discussed, and a very cool collection of european garments ranging from hundreds of years ago to the present. as part of this, they had an exhibit that erin would have loved. it was titled “men in skirts” and featured the evolution of skirt-like apparel for men and had examples of togas, kilts, frock coats, and discussed the influence of the punk, grunge, and fetish scenes on skirted fashion. the exhibit concluded with contemporary designers and their attempt to create skirted fashion that was free of gender association. it was an interesting perspective, but save for the kilts, i couldn’t help but see most of the designs as being decidedly feminine. it is interesting to note how, in some ways, women are much more free in fashion than men. that is, they can wear slacks without having their femininity questioned, but with men, only the likes of uber-males like david beckham can get away with wearing a skirt.

the gender bending didn’t stop at the museum, however. i went back to meanwhile for a final skate and discovered that the young girl skater, who was there on my last visit, was once again riding the bowls. this time she was there with a non-skater girlfriend who seemed a bit older and also to lack some of that tomboyness that fades with age. as the girl skated, her older friend has a look on her face that could only be described as envy. the girls who frequent the skate spot back in edinburgh seem so distant and self possessed, almost like mannequins completely oblivious to the skating going on. but, i’d like to think the girl watching her friend at the park was somehow aware of the additional freedom and confidence of her younger companion. then the younger girl did the most peculiar thing. she handed her board to her older friend and returned to her backpack where she retrieved a hairbrush and started brushing her hair.

at least to me, the juxtaposition of skateboarding, an activity which, though in no way inately male, certainly can be almost totally associated with male adolescence, and hair brushing, an activity undertaken with such public vigor only by pre-teen girls, was extremely potent. this scene is a better embodiment of feminism and gender equally than any i could possibly contrive. it is not the abandonment of traditionally feminine activities to prove a point. it is the freedom to choose, at one’s discretion and without regard to the gender-ladenness of various things, the aspects of lifestyle that make one happy. how cool is that?

besides girls skating, it was a fun little session. i watched the italian family take turns dropping into the mini and teach and encourage each other in a display of family unity that seemed so stereotypically italian. i found myself learning some of the mini-ramp tricks i could never do in those halcyon days of adam graham’s backyard ramp: f/s 5-0s, blunt-rock-fakies, tailslides, and some grindy pivot tricks whose names i don’t know. my personal glory was cut short when i watched older locals do huge airs over the hips and do enormously impressive tech tricks on the coping of the mini-ramp-like bowl.

in between runs, i talked with some of the locals and i was once again impressed by the friendliness that skaters extend to other skaters. these kids, who i had only met 5 minutes before were ready to offer me lodging if i wanted to extend my stay in london. it was a tempting offer, but i had exams to revise for and only 2 pounds in my pocket. another time then.

back in junior high and high school, when we skated adam’s ramp in carlisle, pa, we used to have this superstition that you would never say “last run” lest you, invariably, fall spectacularly. well, i’ve found that if i even let the thought “last run” cross my mind, i am surely doomed. thus was the case with my last run when i hung up on a rock and roll and slammed my hip hard on the unforgiving concrete illiciting concerned queries from the kids. this phenomenon was at least empirically corroborated by the bmxer who crashed hard on his last run and another skater who, ollieing down the big 3 set at the edge of the bowls, fell and ripped open some stitches, causing blood to gush everywhere.

i took the tube home and at paddington, i ran into jonesi who i had skated with earlier in the week. we exchanged knowledge of new spots and then bid each other adieu. i got off at my tube stop and hobbled, broken and bruised, back to my hotel.

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london adventure day 7 (mon. 04.08.2002)

Originally written 04.08.2002.

i woke up this morning nearly 12 hours after my ridiculously early bedtime last night. Turning it in early has been a good call. i awoke with no set plans for the day. well, i did have to change hotels, but other than that, nothing. i had realized yesterday that i was starting to get sick of museums. maybe it was my aching body telling me to turn it in, but after a while, the paintings and exhibits seemed interesting but lacked a more profound impact. it made me more than a bit jealous of the london locals who get to scope this stuff any time they want. i reckon that’s one of the merits of living in a city like london. even as a kid, living only 2 hours away from free museum hubs philadelphia and washington dc, i didn’t go all that much due to the overwhelming hassle of finding transport and parking once i got into the city. had there been trains to those cities as convenient and cheap as those in the uk, i would have gone all the time.

money’s running low – only 24 pounds left, so it felt bad to drop the five pounds to see the interior of st. pauls. you can get in for free if you intend to worship there, but i felt about lying about my intentions (in a church no less). you need a tick to climb up the stairs to the whispering gallery (so called because its acoustics allow you to whisper against the wall and be heard on the other side of the rotunda), and the stone gallery anyway. sir christopher wren‘s masterpiece is a sight to behold and it is overwhelming to behold in both in size (being one of europe’s largest cathedrals) and intricacy of its adornment. it is disturbing to see the frivolous graffiti scrawl of the tourists on the stairwells up to the stone gallery which provides a great view, not only of the skaters sessioning the stairs below, but also of the thames and much of london. looking out over the city, one gets a real idea of the density of the place.

below the main floor of the cathedral are the crypts which are the final resting place of such notable figures as florence nightingale, arthur duke of wellington, lord nelson, william blake, henry moore, and other artists, scientists, and military figures. st. paul’s is actually london’s third st. paul’s with the first built by saxons in 603. the second, built in 1100, modified to create a combination of gothic and norman architecture, and later burned in the great fire in 1666. wren recreated some of the second st. paul’s in the current structure, whose construction began in 1675.

i tried to scope westminster abbey, but it seems that it is a destination that will go unvisited on the trip to london – it was closed in preparation for the queen mother’s funeral. what i did encounter was a very odd spectacle of public grief, if one can call it that. perhaps it’s because i’m not from a country with a monarchy (thank goodness, though our current leadership suggests we’re hardly better off), but i really don’t understand the response to her death. i overheard the conversation of some young brits on the tube yesterday that share some of my bewilderment. i mean, it seems that the queen mother was a good person and all (or perhaps not as some of my flatmates have suggested), but it seems superfluous to see such a huge response to someone who, in my opinion, in the grand scheme of things, had such a small impact on the world.

what i saw was really interesting. no one was in tears. it was more like the tourism of death. people queued up for 6-8 hours to see her body lying in state. people were camped out on the sidewalk near westminster abbey and there was the pile of flowers that seems to have become essential to these public displays of mourning. i snapped some pictures of the onlookers as i thought a tourist’s photo of these tourists seemed somewhat appropriate. the funniest image was of a little boy, posed by his father, holding a poster of the queen mother. the kid looked totally confused.

i’m not trying to be xenophobic in criticizing this kind of public pseudo-grief. in fact, i think that a similarly public figure would receive an identical public response. to me, this kind of public pseudo-grief is just an example modern (wo)man’s obsession with the cult of celebrity. perhaps people feel that their life is made more significant by participating, even in an infinitesimally insignificant manner in the life (or death) of others. i just can’t get over the number of wasted moments in the mass of people spending eight hours waiting in queue. one can’t help but think that in all those hours, someone might do something significant and meaningful in their own lives. i just don’t get it.

it reminds me of the discussion on punk culture that i heard on saturday. if there’s one thing that i like about punk, it’s that punk inspires a sense of personal action. sure, i’ll grant that there are celebrities of sorts in the punk scene, but it seems almost impossible to ignore the fact that the person up on stage is very much like you. people often criticized punk’s raggedness and simplicity, but in that i fin it’s true beauty. it captures the inherent potential for creativity in everyone. if i, for a moment, get caught up in someone else’s life, it’s because i find what they’re doing to be inspiring and empowering in my own life. if that’s what the people find in waiting eight hours to see a corpse, fair enough, but i just don’t see it.

i made a couple of stupid realizations today. first, that the term continental breakfast refers to the european continent and seems to be in contrast to the heavier english breakfast. second, i realized why harry potter departs from king’s cross station on his way to hogwarts. london has a number of train stations (others like paddington also having children’s literary significance), each providing service to a different part of the uk. king’s cross provides service to the north, and since j.k. rowling is from the ‘burgh, she’d use king’s cross to get to/from london. so, it only seems natural that harry would use king’s cross as well.

let’s get one thing straight. time out is ace! if you’re planning on seeing a show, checking out a gallery, the cinema, the theater, or doing anything at all in london, you need to score a copy of this weekly events mag. it offers reliable listings of all kinds of events and points out the freebies and best bets. so, that’s how i arrived at the bluetones‘ in-store at the virgin megastore next to the tottenham court road tube exit. the last, and only in-store i had been to, by the ex-urge overkill frontman, made me feel like rock had died. it wasn’t that the music was bad. it was the atmosphere – think spinal tap book signing. there were more curious yuppie parents with strollers and j. crew bags than people who actually know who the band was. so, i didn’t have high hopes for this one, especially having heard the band, billed as “indie-pop”. hopes were higher though when realizing that the turnout was at least 10x that of the aforementioned abortive show (easy to do when there were only about 10 people there).

the pop label is quite accurate as the bluetones seem largely the product of the long british guitar-pop tradition. sweet and simple, their music was pleasant if not particularly innovative. sweet and simple, their music was pleasant if not particularly innovative. the first american comparison that comes to mind is fastball, but i’m sure i can come up with something better.

the band seemed a bit flustered at the idea of playing an in-store. they made a number of cracks about it, but it was still odd to hear a band sing a song title “freeze dried pop”, about the fickleness of popular music, while some of the guitar parts and other instrumentation was so obviously pre-recorded. still, it was a good time and the price was right. a note to anyone else wanting to check out a virgin in-store: when i arrived at 17:45, i was able to get a spot at the front rail. by the time the set started at 18:30, the coral was full and security shut off the floor. so, arrive early to get the goods.

time out is also how i arrived at verge (147 kentish town rd, nw1, 5 minutes north of the camden town tube on the norther line). the show was listed as emo and the lineup featured douglas who i had seen open for hundred reasons a month earlier. funds were now seriously running low, but i decided i’d rather see a show than eat.

i chose wisely and was treated to a night of intense post-hardcore. i had wondered where all the younger kids were at the last two gigs i attended, but the younger set showed up in force for this show, filling up the just right sized venue.

the first band, called jerry built, seemed to be another of an emerging number of younger bands formed by kids who started listening to pop-punk and then expanded their musical tastes. the end product was ataris-style melo-punk that also showed some hardcore influences. the kids were trying to get in all the new-hxc trappings, apparently, as they found away to include programming and tape loops in their music.

the next band to play was losone, from germany. they sounded very much like small brown bike and though not particularly original in style, they played with an intensity that made for a great set. emo is such a muddled label, but these guys were definitely emotional if not traditionally emo-sounding.

the intensity started by losone continued when uk band douglas took the stage. if i could use one word to describe douglas’ set, it would be attack. douglas hurled themselves at the audience, both musically and physically in a manner so bombastic that it had the kids hooked. this band is crazy. i later realized that this is the same band whose singer had jumped from the balcony at the hundred reasons show and given some poor kid a concussion.

in my mind, there are two kinds of post-hardcore bands – the kind that are good because they’re innovative and the ones that are good because they’re tight, solid, and purvey their love of music by completely exhausting themselves on stage. i’ll let you guess which kind of band douglas is. i hadn’t heard of douglas until i came over here, but hopefully they’ll tour the states in the near future. they’re getting quite big in the uk and are even supporting saves the day on a number of uk dates.

the last band to play was dallas texas’ red animal war. a band that surprisingly missed my radar when i was living in texas. surprising because they were quite good. i guess it underscores the intricacies of international record distribution – certain bands that get distributed over here are far bigger than others which are more well known in the ‘states.

unfortunately, i thought they were a bit overshadowed by douglas’ overwhelming set, but they were the more experimental of the two bands, playing more with rhythms and time changes as well as idiosyncratic melodies that had a distinct math rock influence.

so, it was a good night and the show ended just in time for me to make it back to bayswater via the tube.

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dirty reads (done dirt cheap)

Originally written 04.22.2002.

up until 02:30 revising. finished all my computer security stuff. just need to go over it one last time before the exam. fell asleep listening to this american life. realized that i could use shutdown -h +60 so my box would shut down after the episode finished and i wouldn’t have to hear the fan running all night. just as i was about to fall asleep, heard ruckus in courtyard. bastards.

had a dream where i wasn’t really an active party in the dream but an omniscient third party. it was like watching a movie. something about a middle-aged southern woman who ran a small-town hotel and who was content servicing others. her teenaged daughter dreamed of a different life. really weird. don’t know why i’ve been remembering my dreams lately.

woke up at 10:00 to study transaction processing (synchronisation, conflicting operations, dirty reads (hence today’s title), premature writes, etc.). breakfast was a dr. pepper slushy.

an anectdote from a few days ago that just needs to be recounted: it was the middle of the night and i heard iain squeel, “oh my god, anne’s doing horny dancing”. it was late, so i just rolled over and went back to bed. the next morning i got all the gruesome details from iain. anne, an american (and an ugly american, in every sense of the word), got really drunk and knocked on our door. iain answered, and to his horror, encountered anne singing “i’m horny. horny, horny, horny”. there was an acompanying dance. i believe it goes hip thrust, hip thrust, booty slap, booty slap, booty slap. good thing i went to bed early. yikes!

quick run to tesco to get some food for the next couple of days. quick and easy food for study nights and reward food for after exams. trying to find a good vegan chili recipe. bought some 52p/2L generic cola to get me through the night’s revision.

realised that i don’t remember the last time i showered. i don’t really care much normally, and girlfriend across the ocean + exams = complete disregard for personal hygine.

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revision, phone calls, frustration

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dreamt that i was hanging out with erin on a front porch somewhere in columbus when some vagrant tried to attack us by hurling a beer keg at us.

studied crypto hardcore: elgamal, rsa, diffie-hellman – doing my head in. math behind it is hard enough in itself. wasted time coding up sha-1 hash algorithm just for kicks.

got a phone call from erin. followed same format as usual. sad part->talking about school->me ranting->talking about music->just joking around about random stuff (best part)->cutting call short so we can both get back to studying. frustrating. i like getting calls, but i always feel sort of unsated after them. it’s like eating a really good dish at a gourmet restaurant but getting too small a portion. worried about being able to compartmentalize my life so easily, force myself not to be bothered by things. i think that big things that happen in the world or attrocities that happen to strangers upset me more than events that impact me directly. i don’t know why.

thank goodness iain got new records over the holiday. been borrowing some discs. liking in/casino/out from at the drive in a great deal. more post-emo/post-hxc sounds heard on that record than relationship of command. also digging this disc by scottish punk-twinged indie group idlewild. finally, rocking out to jawbreaker. that’s what punk rock should be. of course listening to the old mp3 collection as well: source tags and codes (appropriate cs study music) from trail of dead, go forth by les savy fav, propaghandi‘s last release, and some fifteen.

played a little football in the meadows w/ rob, andrea, and anais(sp?). managed to escape the impending rain of dark scottish clouds. more running around than actual football skill, but still fun.

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on journal writing

Originally written 04.21.2002.

when i am gone, in my arrogance, part of me wants the notariety to receive a public response such as that of the queen mother’s that i witnessed whilst in london. but all of me, even the arrogent part, does not want mourning by strangers, or by anyone for that matter. what i want is examination, the kind of examination that i think everyone wants in their life. i want someone to seek out the meaning behind my “rosebuds”, but not with the voyeurism of this modern age, but instead with the quiet inquisition of childhood. i want someone to break the lock on my old rooms and imagine where i would have hung the posters and photographs. to sit at my desk and dust off the titles stacked on the bookshelves. to page gently through their pages and try to imagine what i ever saw in them. to boot up my computer and scan through the directories, forming a connected graph of all the seemingly independent nodes. i want people to read what i read. to read what i write. i want people to hear what i heard. to listen to the cds neatly organized in their pockets or the tapes, ancient relics of my evolution, less neatly organized, strewn in boxes long forgotten in closets. i want people to trace the steps i might have taken through my cities. i want people to live the small, quiet moments of my life so that they might for a second feel all the contentment and the pleasure, the disgust and the pain. in my absence, they are the ghost, possessing for an instance the vacancy left by my escape instead of the other way around. i am a great collector of things as i think many people are. but why do i and my good company keep these artifacts of existence, these physical memoirs, these forget-me-nots? some would say it is so that they do not forget, but i say they are like the smith’s branding iron, a cold, meaningless hunk of metal whose indellible mark was made somewhere else. these artifacts are not for me. they are for those on the periphery — to examine, to speculate, to steal and to covet. to add substance to my assertions, to make clear what a lifetime of overt expressions could not clarify.

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football, crypto, mtp

Originally written 04.17.2002.

rob brought home a football today, so rob, marco, and i headed over to the meadows to kick the old football around. we played a bit of heads and volleys which is a game where one person plays keeper and the rest try to score, but only from balls in the air. i realized that i was a bit out of shape, and that my football skills totally suck at this point. my fitness was at least better than my flatmate’s, but i just couldn’t finish and put the ball between the posts. oh well, it was a good study break.

i’m watching this show on channel 4 in the uk called the mark thomas project. iain says that mark thomas has been doing this thing for quite a while now, and i would describe him as a uk version of michael moore. but better. the show is part highly political activist stand-up comedy and video of michael moore-esque antics against corporations. it’s like tv nation, but arguably better because it seems like thomas has has more money with which to pull his antics, and as an individual he’s very angry and confrontational, but in the way that most stand-up comics appear to be. so on tonight’s show he’s talking about going after multi-nationals who plan to build dams in turkey which, besides having devistating environmental implications, will also displace thousands of kurish people living in the region. before marco switched the station to watch football, it looked like thomas was posing as an artist and building a giant ice-sculpture version of a dam in front of the headquarters of a french company involved in the dam construction. rad! this show is entertaining and empowering in a way that just makes you feel good. it makes me feel like i do when i watch the truth anti-tobacco tutorials. it’s a amazing. i wonder if i can get it back in the states.

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miscelleny from wed. 04.16.2002

Originally written 04.16.2002.

So I’ve decided to start writing my dreams down because I noticed that Patrick keeps track of his dreams on his web journal and I realized that if I find my waking life relevent enough to document, I might as well document my dream life as well, since the two are no doubt more closely intertwined than may seem apparent. My dream accounts are by no means as cool as the dream journals described by one of the characters in Michael Chabon’s excellent The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Klay, but I hope they’re worthwhile nonetheless.

I’ve found myself dreaming a great deal more since my excursion to London. Perhaps it’s just because I’ve been exhausted ever since and have just been crashing harder. I don’t remember my dream from last night, so I’ll just recount some recent dreams.

A few nights ago, I dreamt that I went home and that I ran into Kerry Tingle, a girl who I went to elementary school and jr. high with. I haven’t seen her in ages, and probably won’t, and I don’t even know if I’ve spelled her name correctly. But in my dream, we just hung out. Really random.

Two nights ago, I had another back home in PA dream. I dreamt that I was driving around Mt. Holly Springs, PA with my mother and brother. I think there was some argument or other point of convention, but I don’t really remember all that part. All that I remember is that Mt. Holly Springs, PA was, as is only possible in dreams, distinctly Mt. Holly, and at the same time, completely not. The dream town was laid out on the reverse axis of it’s real-life counterpart, and the architecture of the town was distincltly similar to Edinburgh. Not only that, but the dream town had somehow gained an archway that was formed by a toppled over, minature, version of the Eifel Tower. I’m sure Freud would have something to say about that imagery. Again, random.

other stuff:
difficulty concentrating in class after long hiatus

sudanese coffee and revision

political discussion with agatha